Tractor Truck Super Show by SepianMoorshire, literature
Literature
Tractor Truck Super Show
Dirt, the roaring lament of
late model steel,
The smell of heavy lights,
only completely covering
the arena floor,
also plastic cups
and the pale of fizzy beer.
In places, ground gives way,
No matter how deep a tread
is on those over-sized
tires, that sled isn't gonna
move.
A roar goes up as the engine
is cut,
the pilot pumping
his fist in the air,
The hitch has made it,
on the night's last pull,
past that chalk white, full-distance line.
And I was worried about shaving
Dragon, Tiger, and Phoenix
Three points of a cardinal compass
Spinning needle landing nowhere
Which is everywhere isnt
Tin empty, made of plastic
Breath short and full from water
Watching without seeing
And I was worried about shaving
Taking down banners of deer skin
Lifting up ignorance, exalting it
Sunblind for reason of defiance
Trying to pull ashes, trying to taste heat
More fish, once more again
Stand for someone
The steadfast coyote
Close my friend
Water-rain seeks to separate
River-rain flies to expand
Scared to be lost
In Oceans sightless dream
Spun wheeled and coco
No bowing Trees, only me.
Life cannot be fantasy,
Not and survive.
Escape leaves a return
once games are over.
Life cannot be lived unreal,
not and have truth.
The comfort of lies
has Its price,
when they are revealed.
Life can become the things of Dreams,
Sometimes exceeding all containment,
Sometimes paling fantasies in comparison,
Truths become more compelling than
their empty counters,
and not so empty wishes.
Life cannot survive as fantasy,
but it can stagnate in the stilled waters
of unchased dreams, sparkled
by the sky of stars shinning
down into it.
Confused as a heaven, surrounded
in festering swamp,
Discussions of the Aspects of Reality
Here have we our White Rabbits,
Insatiable above timberlines dreams,
commotion attributing silence to itself
in a belief to fool the foolish.
Tank-tread tact birthing wide paths
Into a future farther removed from Angeline pasts,
Yet no more strange than living for a moment in time
So beguiling with simplicity that Ockems Razor
no longer applies
Sent off tracking unshod ponies thru an underbrush
of sage, advice heard without listening,
Spoken by a breeze flowing underneath the leaves
of oak, and above the needles of pine, discerningly
Drink wearily from spr
Obsession
Edge-of-sleep bordering worry
clenching brusquely
holding fast
Each angle an unchanged re-play
of events removed
Each time, little or no
resolution more than the last.
In the doses that fill my silent vision
a staccato of reasons spill through my thoughts.
The vacuum unsatisfied with cast-offs,
with naked, blasphemous separation,
with divest.
And at the copse, filled by worries long planted,
more than a share of developed,
no buddha sits. The harder I look.
Shame from failure to self,
disgust from the shame,
relief short lived
in response to the actions
of others.
There is without,
There is within,
To the edge of love
is a crease smoothed
by the rush of rain
at odds with the banks
that are told, contain.
Restless in current
and bold in chance.
The endless strive comes short
with the resolve of years.
I take her hand at my side.
A comfort, a reassurance
that all I do
that all I am
is beautiful.
Taste of sweet wine
numbing my tongue.
Tails from coats,
tales left undone.
And in the transcendental
I reside. A guest,
a mistaken traveler
drawn in by the allure of night
by the fragrance of passions.
Trailing far behind the cope,
before the understanding,
that sand sculpture asking
There is without,
There is within,
To the edge of love
is a crease smoothed
by the rush of rain
at odds with the banks
that are told, contain.
Restless in current
and bold in chance.
The endless strive comes short
with the resolve of years.
I take her hand at my side.
A comfort, a reassurance
that all I do
that all I am
is beautiful.
Taste of sweet wine
numbing my tongue.
Tails from coats,
tales left undone.
And in the transcendental
I reside. A guest,
a mistaken traveler
drawn in by the allure of night
by the fragrance of passions.
Trailing far behind the cope,
before the understanding,
that sand sculpture asking
Obsession
Edge-of-sleep bordering worry
clenching brusquely
holding fast
Each angle an unchanged re-play
of events removed
Each time, little or no
resolution more than the last.
In the doses that fill my silent vision
a staccato of reasons spill through my thoughts.
The vacuum unsatisfied with cast-offs,
with naked, blasphemous separation,
with divest.
And at the copse, filled by worries long planted,
more than a share of developed,
no buddha sits. The harder I look.
Shame from failure to self,
disgust from the shame,
relief short lived
in response to the actions
of others.
Discussions of the Aspects of Reality
Here have we our White Rabbits,
Insatiable above timberlines dreams,
commotion attributing silence to itself
in a belief to fool the foolish.
Tank-tread tact birthing wide paths
Into a future farther removed from Angeline pasts,
Yet no more strange than living for a moment in time
So beguiling with simplicity that Ockems Razor
no longer applies
Sent off tracking unshod ponies thru an underbrush
of sage, advice heard without listening,
Spoken by a breeze flowing underneath the leaves
of oak, and above the needles of pine, discerningly
Drink wearily from spr
No bowing Trees, only me.
Life cannot be fantasy,
Not and survive.
Escape leaves a return
once games are over.
Life cannot be lived unreal,
not and have truth.
The comfort of lies
has Its price,
when they are revealed.
Life can become the things of Dreams,
Sometimes exceeding all containment,
Sometimes paling fantasies in comparison,
Truths become more compelling than
their empty counters,
and not so empty wishes.
Life cannot survive as fantasy,
but it can stagnate in the stilled waters
of unchased dreams, sparkled
by the sky of stars shinning
down into it.
Confused as a heaven, surrounded
in festering swamp,
And I was worried about shaving
Dragon, Tiger, and Phoenix
Three points of a cardinal compass
Spinning needle landing nowhere
Which is everywhere isnt
Tin empty, made of plastic
Breath short and full from water
Watching without seeing
And I was worried about shaving
Taking down banners of deer skin
Lifting up ignorance, exalting it
Sunblind for reason of defiance
Trying to pull ashes, trying to taste heat
More fish, once more again
Stand for someone
The steadfast coyote
Close my friend
Water-rain seeks to separate
River-rain flies to expand
Scared to be lost
In Oceans sightless dream
Spun wheeled and coco
That is what I am going to lovingly refer to it as from here out. "My Madness."
Every so often I begin to see and hear things (mostly situations) differently than everyone else involved. I take something out of context, or I see an expression, or hear a tone of voice that I feel implies something that does not actually exist. And if nothing else, seeing things that arn't there... does not that qualify as madness? I think it does, and I aim to keep it in check, for the battle against those who would claim this earth back as their own require me to keep myself with a degree of sanity. (Those who know my love of H.P. Lovecraft will understand)